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As my misery grew so did the mountain of silence and depression.
I remember dreaming of someday being a somebody, a somebody
with her own business. I spent a lot of time feeling sorry
for myself. My undisciplined mind was very busy with these
empty and meaningless thoughts. I didn’t like being there
so I chose to get to know just who I was and took a good
look at what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.
At the turn of the century I ended up starting my own business in
the multi level marketing industry (MLM). This kept me very
busy. I thought this would make me happy. I spent most of
my time running in circles proving I was a some body, a
multi level marketer for 6 years. After the MLM Company
fell apart I was miserable once again and started my search
for a life coach, so I could find out what was missing.
I met,
Stephanie (Emerge-and-see.com) who helped me gain clarity in my
marriage and my life's purpose. I learned to change how I
looked at life and my life started changing. I was also
studying the bible through a program called Bible Study
Fellowship (BibleStudyFellowship.com).
About the same time I attended a weekend seminar with
Landmark Education (LandmarkEducation.com),
as I was ready to take a look at what was working and what
wasn't working in my life. With Jesus as my spiritual
guide, Stephanie as my coach, some Landmark Education and
in-depth bible study; I became aware of the many
possibilities that were in front of me. To top that off, I
witnessed the birth of my first grandchild to which I
totally opened up to what was missing in my life and felt
the calling to actually publish my painfully hilarious story
and fulfill the dream of being a speaker. I gave thanks to
God for the breath of life that he had given me, asked for
His forgiveness for failing to love myself.
That’s what was missing . . . Me Loving Me, Me Feeling Worthy of
Being Loved. I was now able to love everyone as they
were/were not, simply because I loved myself. Now I was
truly free to be me. I didn’t have to be who others wanted
or expected me to be. This new feeling caused me to accept
my husbands love, God’s love, and love from others. Love
changed my life.
It is beyond explanation how this mountain of silence &
depression vanished right before my eyes. The possibility I
created for myself was the possibility of Worth Being Loved
which brought about being fun and spontaneous. Living in
this possibility gives me only one choice, happy, well most
of the time.
What I have really wanted was just to be me, the person God
created me to be. As I learn who I really am by speaking up
I often find I must apologize for my words because what I
said was not from me, it was my EGO speaking. As I
continually ask God to help me speak up & shut up; it
happens at the right time! I often find myself laughing or
crying as I surrender.
I know as you read my story of transformation in my first book,
Thank You MLM, it will help you to take the steps needed to
celebrate loving & expressing yourself? God bless you on
your journey as you find something to be thankful for (no
matter how difficult it is, find something to be thankful
for).
If the door mat stands up, no one can step on her!
Love
Dorothy/Mamma D
p.s.
Thank You MLM is available to download for free. Just click
on ‘My Book’ on the menu bar and scroll down to the free
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If you paid for this e-book someone took you for a ride. My
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